Sunday, February 25, 2018

Wretched ....

I've lost it all
Whether big or small
All these times I've thought
That I'll win them all

It's time I take the fall
Never has it been my call
Every night I'll stay awake
Knowing it's my life at stake

There were tears and fears
A state of mind unclear
The pain slowly crept
The grieving body wept

Now I'm making my climb
These steps taking me closer to the end of my time
As life's moments flash me by
A prayer I'll say to bid the world goodbye

Standing over the ledge
To the world below I pledge
If I'll ever survive this plunge
God's gracing me with a life's refund 

Saturday, February 10, 2018


Every smile a struggle 
Loosen muscles, wrinkles, sunken face

Every move a pain 
Hardened joints, swells, awkward limps  

Time slithers every cell withers
Her life's been one hell of a resister

Falling in her fifties
Cracking the cap out of the left knee 

She'd married two men separately
Both dead by the time she turned  seventy

Now trying to breath her life to a century 
No one's sure if it'll all end up a merry


Wednesday, February 07, 2018


The mind in chaos an internal conversation
Bringing unrest and thoughts of confliction

Razor sharp knives stabbing in aggression
The pain's inability to release the wounds affliction 

Escaping from reality, circles and rounds
Gagged and confused I am bound

Voiceless to scream i build a wall
Struggle amounts i begin my fall

Wrecked, broken the soul's combatant
Breaking out of hell ensuring existence

Conjuring strength out of hatch
Fighting vigor match for match

Rising above the sadness
I'll live yet another day of madness

Saturday, March 25, 2017

Random Thoughts ...

Sleep tight my dear as all things you fear will not stay long here
as long as I am around there is nothing for you to frown
cause you'll know that nothing will ever take you down

Just remember those younger days your once little steps and often soundless claps
from the many falls, several knocks to the head with some on the legs
cuts on the elbows, blood on the face

As you take shape molded with stronger arms, bigger feet
Swifter movements, broader shoulders and better understanding of what makes the world
Forgetting memories of childhood failures and setbacks

Sleep tight my dear as all things you fear will not stay long here
as long as I am around there is nothing for you to frown
cause you'll know that nothing will ever take you down

Monday, August 10, 2015

A Nation's Golden Jubilee

It was a long weekend every Singaporean looked forward to as the nation celebrates her 50th National Day. As usual, important milestones are celebrated with my best friend and the 'family'.

The first parade without the founding father Lee Kuan Yew as his passing away earlier in the year resulted in him not being able to witness the celebrations the nation was preparing for since a year ago.

It was an emotional night for me as the family squeezed in with the crowd at the Promontory Bay in hopes to catch the fireworks and aerial display.

Father and son sang the national anthem and national songs loudly - something I enjoyed really much especially into the chorus of Kit Chan's Home which caused my eyes to well up with tears.

We managed to witness the sparkles which ignited the skies and with Luca on my shoulders covering his ears in fear of the booms each time a flare hits the sky.

As I explained to Luca that the likelihood of me attending the Centenary / Platinum Jubilee will be very low thus I enjoyed the moment we both looked up into the sky and watching the firework displays hoping it'll be locked into our memories for the longest time.

He understood and said I'll be his child's grandfather by then. Hopefully I'll get to see that day come.

Now that the long weekend is over, I have to drag my feet to work tomorrow and counting down to the next public holiday.

Happy birthday Singapore .... And thank you LKY for what he has helped us built in his life time.

We must carry on his fight and see Singapore progress even further ....

Monday, January 05, 2015


In memory of Rain.

Rain was four months old when we got her from Pet Symphony.

She had the nicest eyes and Sandy Shek and I were immediately mesmerized by her. Those eyes were really pretty. She became close friends with Beatrice Shek as Beatrice doted on her lots.

She played with anyone who visited Marine Terrace.

Playful she was and many times found herself in trouble for biting shoes and stealing food.

We remembered she gobbled up a packet of Bah Kwa as well as mooncakes on a separate occasion and hid herself under the table knowing she did something really wrong.

As usual, she ended up being caned. But she hardly learns her lesson and it'll happen time and again.  

She loved catching balls, bones and sitting next to us whenever we watched television. She also loved sitting with the sisters as they played mahjong.

She didn't like cigarette smoke. She didn't like children. She would often snarl when kids approached her and I was often worried she would hurt children trying to be friendly toward her.

She was the one who greeted us when we returned home.

To be honest, I've neglected her since Luca came into our life and in recent years it pained me to see her in poor health.

Thankfully MC Shek had all the patience to care for her. Rain ate not only dog food but cereal and fruit.

She went blind last year, wasn't mobile and died at the ripe old age of 16 years old today.

A big regret Sandy and I had was not visiting her over the weekend despite tell tales of her not being able to make it much longer.

We apologize, Rain.

We love you Rain and I've heard all dogs go to heaven I'm sure

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Twenty three years ago ...

Just yesterday a friend sent me this photo and I couldn't remember many of my classmates' names.

Age caught up and not catching up with old friends or keeping in touch is also one reason I couldn't remember some names.
In 3 years, Luca too will be in Primary 1 and I'm not sure if he'll don the same uniform as I did. Well, hopefully so and solely dependant on the education regulators to make any changes to the rules.

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