The end of 2009 ...

The year went by very quickly. With ups and downs, tears and joy. Really.

 

2009 is quite a significant year for me as I finally managed to settle down in having my own love nest with Sandy. A great start for 2009. I also managed to catch my beloved X-Japan in concert in HK. Two big dreams came true then.

 

Just like any race, you don't take the lead all the time.

 

In the start of the second quarter, I decided to take the plunge and left GMAC which was a very bad choice I made. I lived to regret it even till now. Despite having a very much better salary package right now, I do miss the working environment in GMAC. I was stupid to leave but to feel better, we all work for the money isn't it? In mid-2009, I moved into advertising after leaving GMAC for a short period of time where I realised I couldn't make ends meet because it was tough industry but it's still a passion I still have but I won't be looking back anymore.

 

In late September, good news was bestowed upon me. We will be parents. : ) When the doctor told me Sandy's pregnant, my eyes welled up with tears and it all flowed when I called family to inform them. It were tears of joy. It was super!

 

During the same time, I was offered my current job and I felt really blessed to have all good things coming my way after suffering for a couple of months. Looking back, I guess I have to thank my lucky stars for helping me out on this one.

 

2009 passed by just like that, all in a wink.

 

I look forward to tonight's BBQ party with close friends and welcome 2010 with open arms as 2010 will again be another significant year for me as we will also welcome Baby Mark in the second quarter of the year. Things will change by then but I know it is going to be for the better.

 

Happy New Year everyone and may 2010 bring lots of happiness, laughter, joy, fun and great health for us all.

 

Cheers!

 

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http://hidekram.blogspot.com/

Christmas ... gone.

The long weekend just swept by so quickly with family gatherings, friends' parties and some snooker.

 

As an adult, Christmas is likely just another day without having to report to work and responding to emails. Despite the numerous parties I attended, there wasn't really the Christmas feel. Maybe because I am not a Christian and don't attend church but it helps when parties I attend have some Christmas decorations around. It is also an excuse to consume alcohol. A little more alcohol than the usual 2 cans. : )

 

Back at work and aren't we glad it is going to be a short week but this time I won't get to enjoy a long weekend because I will be leaving for India on the second day of 2010. I am going to miss my bed again ( oops. I meant my wife).

 

What's the next holiday after the New Year? Lunar New Year!! That one is going to be another long weekend and I can't wait for that to come because I can then distribute red packets and eat lots of goodies. The first day of the holiday happens to fall on Valentine's Day and that coincides with Lance's birthday. I wonder if we can celebrate it for him this year as he will be busy handling two kids. Bet he'll gather more white hair growing from his scalp.

 

Enough about upcoming holidays. Back to work now.

Merry Christmas ...!

It is the time of the year for giving ,, and of course a good break away from work.

 

The weather isn't looking very good but it is not snowing. Never. Only heavy showers here in Singapore which causes massive traffic jams. Maybe if Santa visited, he'll be caught in one too. 

 

Many things are lined up this long weekend. Lunch and dinner parties,  meet up with old friends and most importantly spending time with family. Isn't that the reason for Christmas? Getting extended families together to laugh and have fun.

 

If I were given a Christmas wish by Santa, I don't really know what to ask for. When I was younger, I used to hang my wish list on a Christmas tree and it is often for material gifts but now I can only hang it on my own neck, work hard for it and get the things I want. So back to what I would ask for from Santa if he ever existed, maybe more laughter, fun and joy in my every day life. It is not that I am getting anything less but at my age I don't know what else I can wish for because I know if I wanted a Ferrari or my own private jet or a district 9,10 house or apartment, I'll have to work doubly hard for it and how hard do I want to work for it? I won't compromise quality time with family and I don't have a golden spoon like many other peers of mine but I am very happy mine is already silver because I worked for what I own now (minus the gifts from family once in awhile) and I am proud of that. Very proud. 

 

Yes, I had my bad times this year in 2009 but it is only the bad times that allows me to treasure the better times I am having now. It helped me grow up and made me think differently about life, family relationships and friendships. It was indeed many lessons learnt through 2009 and I know this will not be the last lesson learnt for a man's journey is all about making mistakes, learning from it and picking the broken pieces up again.

 

So if Santa is listening, I wish for lots of laughter, fun and joy in my life. Not only for me but for my family.

 

Merry Christmas everyone ...

Christmas Shopping.

 

Orchard was a chaotic place over the weekend and thanks to Andy, I needed to make a trip to DFS where I had to tell off a cashier at the Origins counter for poor service.

Well, she was rude and customer unfriendly. It is very unlike me to voice out my unhappiness and commenting on service standards because I know noone is perfect but I don't know why but I blew up when the unfriendly person made it look like we would run away with the unpaid item and thus she rudely asked us to leave it at the counter if we wanted to pay. It is not a big thing but I just didn't like the way she sounded and thus I told her off.

 

Frankly, after that I felt a little bad for being harsh.

 

Dinner was at Brauhaus, an English pub look-alike. Why of all places an English pub right? Well, I was missing my cider and I banged hard on luck that they could feed my crave for any cider but unfortunately none. I had to settle for a German cloudy ale. The steak Sandy ordered was pretty good and reasonably priced but my mussels in beer was terrible. Lousy and I was again left disappointed. Maybe the best place for mussels is still Brussels Sprouts. Will take my dad there sometime and I am sure he'll enjoy it. 

So the festive season is round the corner and lots of people are doing their year-end shopping for presents and gifts. I have more or less completed mine except for maybe one or two persons which I have yet to purchase for. 

 

I am looking forward to 2010 as it is going to be an important year for me in terms of career progression and of course Baby Mark will join us in the second quarter of the year. Lots of changes definitely in terms of lifestyle, sleep and leisure but we'll just need to manage it properly as I believe we have all the resources required to manage the baby well. Believe it or not I actually mentioned it to Sandy that in June, we'll take a trip out to Japan with my brothers. Let's see if we'll do just that and evil enough to leave the baby behind to be looked after by grand Baya and grand Maya. : ) 

 

  

An Anniversary

December 17 is a special day for me.

In 2006, I surprised Sandy with a ring and most of my friends don't know this except for family because I proposed to her 3 years ago in a private function room, away from the crowd but in front of my parents, in-laws and godparents.

That was the official start of the journey of our lifetime minus the courting days.

Today she is expecting and we are all very excited. Yet another new journey for us.

Here I share the song Anniversary by Yoshiki written for Emperor Akihito of Japan.

Fatherhood

If you asked me whether or not I am excited to be a father, the answer is yes.

At the same time I do get weak in the knees just having the thought that I will be a father in half a year.

It can be a scary thought because things will change drastically. In terms of lifestyle, outings and even the simplest entertainment of watching a concert within my own four walls can be made difficult.

It is not easy to be a father let alone be a good one but I will try.

A friend dropped me a comment on my Facebook asking me to enjoy my freedom now before losing it. Is it that dreadful whereby my freedom is compromised? I don't know but frankly I have seen friends who make it look so easy and some who just get frustrated whenever the child cries. I wonder which one will I be.

I always brag about leaving the baby to cry out loud and not pay to much attention to him but I know I am not that sort who can really put two earphones into the ears and pretend that the baby is asleep soundly.

I don't know if I will take time to change his diapers, make him milk, feed him and burp him or will I just be a father who would play with him when he is in the best of moods and return him to the mother when he ends up wailing at the top of his voice.

I can't tell now but time can and that will all start happening in May 2010 where my little prince will join the family. Prince. Nice name. :)

Oh Boy .... : )

It's a boy …At least that is what the doctor confirmed but I don't trust these machines especially when the little cute fella in mummy's womb refuses to spread out the legs and show the genitals. Shy like daddy. : )

 

I have been back in Singapore for a week now and have had my fair share of local food. From Assam fish head, Belachan beans, Prawn noodles, Minced Pork noodles, Chicken rice, Rocky's pizza (not local but I love it), Lontong, Fried Carrot cake, Oyster egg, Hainanese pork chop, Steamboat at Yet Con and my favourite Beef Noodles at Ion Orchard. Quite a feast isn't it? Come on! Not all in one day but in a week.

 

Frankly, I covered most of the local variety now and have only cravings for crabs, stingray, salted vegetable and duck soup, bak kut teh and some Japanese meal. Never will I get sick of Japanese meals just like I never get sick of X-Japan.

 

Sleeping on my own bed has been ecstatic and especially so when the music coming out from the sound system is heavenly.

 

I have been trying to make it a habit that Sandy sleeps with some light classical music in the background as I was told this would help the baby develop better. Anyone can comment on this? I can imagine baby Mark conducting the orchestra with his little fingers. No. Not middle fingers!

 

We have to come up with the baby's name soon and this is going to be a tough one for us. We'll start off with the English name and after that sort out the Chinese characters when he pops out from mummy's womb.

 

All excited. Very excited.

Back in Singapore

Now you know why my previous blog entry titles never tallied in number and that's because I would like to keep the date of my return a big secret. Thanks to the company for sending me back earlier.

Well, it was a huge surprise for family and friends alike. Sandy cried out tears of joy when she saw me just like the day she cried when I departed Singapore. I too cried out in joy but only in the heart as my plane landed safely on the tarmac of Changi Airport.

It is nice to be back home and I really enjoyed the feel of my bed, my pillow and even the toilet bowl. Unfortunately, I have not yet accustomed to the change in timezone. The body clock is sensitive to such as it took me almost 1 over week to sort it out when I first arrived in Bristol but I guess I'll be back to normal in no time.

The weather in Singapore is lovely and it isn't too hot. Just nice cool weather and of course with the help of air conditioning in the car and at home too. Without the a/c life is going to be miserable.

I will try to blog as often as possible and update you on the progress of my work and the baby too. : )

Visit once in awhile but don't do so daily as I don't want you disappointed. I was also wondering if I should carry on blogging about the food I eat here in Singapore. What do you think?

Bristol Day 18

It is the weekend and TGIF!! Finally ......

Had a wonderful time tonight with dinner at a new place with a fire place. Is it called a fireplace? No idea if that is correct but it sure keep me not warm but hot. I had to take off my jacket and fleece and yet still find it hot.

Dinner was a 10oz rare steak that wasn't very fantastic. I still miss the Sunday roast. I wonder where I can get it around soon but never mind I enjoyed the company in the later part of the night at Adrian's pub.

This is going to be interesting and definitely worrying for my parents. I was practically hanging out ( well not hanging out but they were in the pub) with a group of guys who were on cannabis. It is sort of legal here and nothing much happens if one gets caught but of course me being a good person, I turned down the offer and walked away but not before asking permission to take a photo of the 'stuff'.

They told me they got happy smoking marijuana and it was very normal to be doing so in the UK. Interesting that they were both drinking and having cannabis at the same time. It must be double high isn't it?

I had a lot to drink tonight as Adrian treated me to a pint or two. I had 4 pints of rough cider and one Guinness. My head is spinning now but no choice as I decided to lend Angela my camera for the weekend. Boxing isn't anything big for me to take photos of. Right Adrian?

Met up with lots of familiar faces at the pub. We had Graham, Scott, Paul, Jodie and many others whom I cannot remember their names. Oh yes, Dylan too.

Can you see Adrian having a cereal for supper? We had a little clowning around with Boxing and Chinese kungfu. Well, I was like a freaking chicken trying to act like Bruce and his style. Funny isn't it? No. I wasn't high on cannabis but maybe intoxicated with alcohol.

I will meet Adrian tomorrow morning and then mid afternoon to make my long trip out to some exciting fun. Surely it is going to be exciting but don't worry because I am in good hands.

Looks like back home there are plans to have wanton, assam fish for dinner on Sunday. Wow. I can't wait to swallow them soon. And sure it is soon.

Lunch was filet-o-fish and some festive cheese pie.

Home Sweet Home - Motley Crue

A very meaningful song especially for me now. The feeling of going home is just so near and I just get all excited thinking about it. So many days away from home has made me really homesick. I will say months away rather than days.

The video is interesting and has a hidden message but I don't think you guys can understand it or catch it in the video.

See any similarity in Motley Crue and X-Japan? Wild I guess.

Enjoy the video and see if you catch the special code in the video. Interestingly if you hear it hard enough and focus your thoughts while watching, you'll know what the song is about. But if you don't, never mind as I took a long time to really understand and find the meaning to it.

It took me 16 years ... and thanks to Hanwen for buying me Motley's cassette tape at my 14th birthday.


Home Sweet Home

You Know I'm A Dreamer
But My Heart's Of Gold
I Had To Run Away High
So I Wouldn't Come Home Low

Just When Things Went Right
It Doesn't Mean They Were
Always Wrong
Just Take This Song And You'll
Never Feel
Left All Alone

Take Me To Your Heart
Feel Me In Your Bones
Just One More Night
And I'm Comin' Off This
Long & Winding Road

I'm On My Way
Well, I'm On My Way
Home Sweet Home
Tonight Tonight
I'm On My Way
I'm On My Way
Home Sweet Home

You Know That I Seem
To Make Romantic Dreams
Up In Lights, Fallin' Off
The Silver Screen

My Hearts Like An Open Book
For The Whole World To Read
Sometimes Nothing-
Keeps Me Together
At The Seams

I'm On My Way
Well, I'm On My Way
Home Sweet Home
Tonight Tonight
I'm On My Way
Just Set Me Free
Home Sweet Home

Bristol Day 19

Finally it is Friday tomorrow and I have never been so excited about a weekend before since I came to Bristol. I wonder why. Funny isn't it?

The weather tonight has been cold and I think I might need to buy another set of winter clothing because what I have now won't be able to last through mid December. Terrible isn't it? If only I could have steamboat, it'll warm me up lots.

Since steamboat is not available, what else can keep you warm? Lamb ribs. I had lamb ribs at Beefeater this evening and a pumpkin soup. Not too bad but surely not the best dish I have tried in Bristol. Frankly, I wonder which one can I consider the best meal I had. Let me recap and reveal it in another blog entry.

Angela had some pasta and crumble apple pie with ice cream. She seemed to enjoy it but the cheese in the pasta sure was filling because she couldn't finish the meal.

Lunch was fish and chips with Angela and Pina. Well, more than fish and chips because we ordered a battered sausage and a faggot. A faggot is some sort of mixed minced meat which didn't taste that fantastic. It was salty. The fish and chips weren't anything special too. Not traditional because it was owned, runned and cooked by Iranian. Everyone can make fish & chips thus it no longer is an English meal. Same goes for Japanese food in Bristol as most Japanese restaurants I know do not have a single Japanese chef. Talk about globalization at it's fullest.

After dinner I took some time to do some shopping again and got quite a bit of stuff. It is afterall the Christmas season and the mood for shopping was surely around thus I bought some things.Only some so please don't think I got you something because I likely didn't. :)

Headed to Adrian's pub after dinner and had a cider. I told him if only I could bring some cider home for family to try, it'll be great and he told me he'll pack them in a soft drink bottle for me so I can take some home. Should I accept the offer? Well, let's see what happens three weeks later.

Yahoo. The weekend is in reach and again I can't wait for this weekend.

Bristol Day 20

The real countdown begins. :) Exciting isn't it?

Well, just got back from dinner at 11pm and it is really late given it is a work day tomorrow.

Headed to Masa with Angela tonight for Tepanyaki. I consider myself heading back to familiar territory when I head there because I some what know most of the people there. At least by face but tonight we managed to exchange some email addresses etc. Angela and I ordered a simple tepanyaki menu, some Kirin beer and ended the meal with a complimentary plate of homemade peanut ice cream. No kidding. It was very nice and I wouldn't mind paying for such dessert.

My Italian colleague prepared some home-made dessert for our team and the tiramisu look-alike was definitely yummy. We call it Pinamisu - named after Pina. Mix the words up and another meaning comes alive.

This morning I walked out to the laundry to collect my clothes and wanted to deposit some dirty clothes for laundry but the chap wasn't open. I hope he hasn't run away with my clothes because that is going to be quite a loss for me. 7 pieces of clothing can help lessen the load but not worth it.

Again I count my days before I can sleep on my own bed. I just hope the air-con is cold enough so that I can enjoy my sleep back home. I miss the TV programs, the music I can listen to (versus watching Youtube) and the food I can savour. How many more days? I very often lose count. Still too many numbers but maybe not. I don't know.

Christmas is round the corner and I can see lots of people shopping here in Bristol. I too did start on my shopping but am controlling a bit because I didn't want to risk running an overweight luggage.

This Saturday I will be going for a date and then attending a boxing party at Adrian's place with a partner. I won'r reveal who this partner is but take a look at the photos and you can start guessing. :) I have to be in a suit and tie because it is a formal event. Adrian has made a booking for the hotel because it is going to be a little faraway and I won't make it back to the apartment on Saturday night thus Skype can only take place on Saturday when Sandy is in Desaru enjoying.

I will then take time to travel on Sunday along the countryside with Adrian and visit cider farms etc. I was told that the phone network isn't very good in that area thus do not get worried if you can't reach me on the phone. I will reach you when I return home by blog but I promise to try to call whenever possible.

So Beatrice is going away for a vacation to Macau for her birthday. I wonder if she'll win enough money to buy us all presents. :)

Off to sleep now as it is 1130 pm and in 15 minutes I will wake my darling wife up. Can't wait to do that in person by planting a kiss on her cheeks to say 'I love you'.

共同渡過 - Leslie Cheung

Sharing another song that I like from Leslie. Yet another meaningful song about the support of family and loved ones helping one another walk through difficult times.

I am very blessed to have a family that takes good care of me in every way. From the time I took my first steps and fell, family has been there for me. I know whenever I fall, someone will be there to break the fall so that it wouldn't hurt that bad.

I know not many people are as fortunate as me thus like the lyrics to the song, even if I have to live my life again, I will want to be witht the same family members around me. They have shown me all the support, care and love I can ever get and walking in difficult times, the support is priceless.

I believe family at home loves this song too.

Bristol Day 21

21 days to go and it sure seems long. Days are crawling by.

I didn't sleep well last night because I think I strained my back while sneezing. Ouch. It now hurts when I sneeze or cough. Arghh... need a massage. I heard there are pretty good masseuse at the back of my apartment. Should visit them this weekend to get a good rub. :)

It is Tuesday and I can't wait for the weekend so that I will be able to Skype with Sandy but then again, she is heading to Desaru for a day trip. Enjoying herself without me but it is good that she heads out for some fresher air. Maybe not. The air there might now be polluted.

I read that it has been raining cats and dogs in Singapore over the weekend but it has changed again. The weather is hot hot hot. I wonder if it is true but I am sure the weather is surely friendlier in Singapore than in the UK. See. Am turning English. Can't stop talking about the weather.

Am tuned in to Ugly Betty now as there isn't any nice movies to catch nowadays. Oh. They are showing Lethal Weapon 4 starring Jet Li. I kind of thought this was shown last week. Why are they showing again? Sigh.

I had KFC for lunch today and a 2 piece meal cost about 6 pounds. It's weird because they don't serve whipped potato here. Only fries but they too have pop corn chicken. According to my Italian colleague,KFC doesn't exist in Italy. I guess pizza hut might not be there too because every house is likely a pizza outlet. Haha.

Dinner was at Dynasty with Angela and family. We chose to go Chinese because Thomas and Chelsea will be heading to Milan tomorrow for a week's vacation, leaving Angela alone but she will join them for a trip to Scotland and leaving me alone. Or maybe not. :) So we ordered sweet and sour pork, bean sprouts with salted fish, roast duck and prawn omelette. It was a good meal but didn't come cheap. 60 pounds in all. No drinks as I am alcohol free at least for today but I am determined not to drink starting Friday.

I can't believe I am already planning my weekend so soon. Just thinking of it makes me smile. I will visit the casino, do some shopping and see what's good for lunch. Dinner has been planned and will tell you more about it on Sunday. Let's give you a hint. I will need to dress up in a suit for this dinner. I have a date.:) Hopefully no change to the appointment if not I'll be very disappointed. Very.

I spoke to Sandy today. Well,I do so everyday anyway and have spent 180 pounds just on phone calls now. Can't put in the receipts for calls. Darn! I kind of asked her to make sure she'll head down to Baya's place for dinner as the family misses her. Actually not true. It's just that I want her to join in family activities like mahjong. She wants many tons soup. Or maybe one ton soup. Ok. Wanton soup. Chefs reading this? How about making some stingray too? But don't. Wait for me to return before doing that. Maybe the chefs should practice the steam chicken one more time before I head home to eat the best one ever made. Patty chicken. :) Salivating here. But if the chefs can whip up some nice dish this weekend it will be good because my darling wife hasn't been eating well recently. No appetite. Sigh.

Let's hope Sandy can start eating lots again. When I see her I want to make sure the tummy is bigger. :)

Bristol Day 22

The weather turned cold today and the forecast is that at 3am tomorrow morning it could be as low as -3 degrees. I don't think I am prepared for such temperature. I only have a fleece and a not very thick wind breaker. I certainly hope it will not rain because that is going to be worst.

I really wonder why people would ever want to migrate to this place. It doesn't have the best weather. Doesn't have the best transport system. Doesn't have the best retails opening hours and surely doesn't have the best Chinese food.

Don't blame me because I miss home and I am Chinese thus Chinese food is the best. Well, then again I think the food I miss isn't exactly Chinese food. It is the food of Singapore. BBQ sambal stingray without sambal, ice kachang, Hokkien Mee and Bak Kut Teh. These aren't Chinese food. They didn't originate from China. These are the food I truly miss. See, we Singaporeans do have an identity with food because we are Uniquely Singapore. :)

Work was hectic today and I started early and ended late. Another couple of weeks to go and hopefully things will be different back home. I can be my own little king in my own little castle. Nice ya?

If you asked me what I would miss in Bristol, I frankly don't know. The friends I made outside work? Adrian, Pang, Mimi and some other faces that I so often see at the pub and casino. And I don't know their names but they have shown hospitality by talking to me and getting to know me and sharing their stories.

Lunch was at White Hart, an English pub just behind the office where I had fish & chips and no beer because I had to return to work after lunch.

Dinner was Thai food at Yum Yum Thai and I was a little unusual because I ordered the same old Green Curry. I usually try new stuff but I just didn't bother because I don't fancy Thai food unless taken in Thailand or Golden Mile. Nevertheless, the green curry Was nice but again the price isn't worth it for a Green Curry. In Singapore, I could order three Green Curry and a Thai Iced Tea. Here they replace iced tea with Singha. Haha.

So I thought I could go alcohol free again but I had to stop over at Adrian's pub for a Cider because I know I'll miss the different types of beer here.

Bristol Day 23

Aren't Sundays supposed to be spent with family but my dinner was all alone in a posh restaurant so you must wonder why am I complaining? It is different. Even if I was fed dragon meat, I won't enjoy it because family aren't here with me.

Spent 7 hours in the casino and I need not have to lose any money until the rain came pouring down while I was about to walk out of the building. Damn. I walked right back into the lion's den. You can't blame me. I was bloody bored and I likely spent the whole afternoon in the casino and had a playing time of only 30 minutes max before the rain started. I enjoyed walking around and seeing people play but then things changed when the rain came. I just had nothing to do thus I changed 50 pounds and lost them all.

Eventually, I had to walk in the rain anyway because this rain didn't stop even after my dinner at San Carlos.

Sunday started late today as I slept in till about 8 odd before going on Skype with family. Headed out for Sunday roast after that at Aqua, some Italian Ristorante which served very good roast in a fine dining setting. Well, I couldn't find one with the typical English pub setting thus settled for Aqua.

The food was pretty good and again the portion was huge. Look at the side dish. Cauliflower in cheese in one big bowl and brussel sprouts and carrot in another big bowl. Finished everything else except the two side dishes. Tasted a little cauliflower and didn't like it as it was really filling with the melted cheese. Imagine carbonara with lots of cheese.

Dinner was interesting. I ordered a four course meal which consisted of a bean soup with bread cubes, a big bowl of mussels in white wine and carbonara sauce, Italian dumplings called Ravioli filled with scallop, prawns and cheese. Last was a three scoop sorbet. Well, I enjoyed everything except the 'wanton'. The skin was too thick and I immediately associated it with Xiao Long Bao. But everything else was perfect. The staff were friendly, the ambience was good and the toilet was clean. :) Walked out paying quite a hefty sum of 50 pounds.

I rather me being in Singapore and spending SGD3.50 for a prawn noodles. Grass again is always greener on the other side.

Practically did nothing today. No shopping all day except for table hopping at the casino, watching people have their ups and their downs. Caught the Everton-Liverpool game and also caught the Arsenal-Chelsea game. Yahoo. 3 goals and 3 more points for Chelsea. Geoffrey must be feeling upset with how Arsenal played. Never mind the match. Doesn't matter to me even if Chelsea lost because I won't benefit from the loyalty and wins anyway.

It is a new week again and just can't wait for Friday to come. Haha. Sad isn't it especially when Monday hasn't even started yet. The faster the week passes, the faster my arrival at Changi Airport.

Preparing to go to bed in half an hour at 10pm. It will be an early day for me as I need to head into the office to make calls to the Singapore office. Hope to end work early too if possible but let's see what happens.

New X-Japan Song - Jade.

What a bad fan I am. I didn't even know there was a new song called Jade.

Thanks to Youtube that I found out about it if not I might not even know about it until my baby is 3 years old.

This is going to be a little heavy and if your speakers are blasting, I suggest you don't even try listening to it moreover, you might not like it because I didn't think it was good because it sounds pretty similar to I.V from the soundtrack of Saw IV.

Endless Rain - X-Japan.

I guess when one is lonely walking down a street he likely thinks of something. For me, I hum or at times sing and very much I sing to the emotions that run through me at that moment.

Today the rain fell on a little hard and I had to be walking alone so I started with the verse ...I'm walking in the rain ...

Try to find me in the below clip because I was there for the concert held in HK. Two nights of it. A great experience and surely an emotional one where tears trickled down my cheeks. If I have a chance again to watch an X-Japan concert, I will do it again and hopefully it'll be in Japan. That'll be crazy.

Endless Rain -

I'm walking in the rain,
though everything seems to be hurting me for some reason.
There is only nothing.
Just kill me now ... as I roam forever.
Until I can forget your love.

To me sleep is a confusing, narcotic
that only quiets the beating heart.
All my love seems to flow from my body like a heart felt memory.
I keep my love for you to myself.

*Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness,

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words.
Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...
until I can forget your love.

repeat *

Endless rain, fall on my heart, in this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness.
Endless rain, let me stay a memory in your heart.
Let me take in your tears, take in your memories.

Bristol Day 24

A start to the weekend alone. Well, it's my doing because I wanted to Skype with wife and visit the casino. Saw the picture? That's where I visit usually. That's the biggest around in Bristol.

Started the day having breakfast with sushi chef Pang and then took a short walk to the casino. Walked around and watched people play for 3 hours before changing a hundred pounds to entertain myself. Stayed for about 6 hours and got myself not losing or gaining pounds. Breaking even is good given the time spent entertaining myself with Blackjack and Roulette.

After the casino, I took a walk. Walked to places I have yet to discover and I was glad I did that because I found some really nice restaurants for dinner. I might consider heading there for Sunday roast too.

Settled for a seafood restaurant near the Riverside at Welsh Back City. Loch Fyne was considered an expensive restaurant and I wanted to much to order more food but was really afraid I couldn't finish the meal thus I only went for an orange juice, fish soup with tomato base and a grilled whole sea bass. And do you see the half hard boiled egg on the table? Yummy.

Frankly, when I saw the main course I was a little shocked because stupidly I didn't think it had bones. I thought it was de-boned but I was wrong. It took me 45 minutes to dissect the fish and finish the sea bass. I had to be very careful with the bones because I forgot to bring my X-rays with me.

Well, I had three or maybe more but the main ones were usually Mum, Dad and of course Sandy. Eating fish can be a dangerous process or at least that's what my mum thinks. She avoids fish food or rather food that has fish. She gets paranoid and extremely careful which can be a good thing because that makes us kids worry when we eat fish with bones too. I am one example. I love fish but when I take fish, I just smash the meat up and make sure no bone is left in there however big or small.

So noone's here to help me and I have to do it by myself thus it took a long time. I am used to curry fish head which uses big fish but this sea bass was kind of small thus the bones too were small. All right. I shall stop the fish nonsense but other than the processing time to de-bone, chew and chew again the meat it was a very good meal. Very fresh with the taste of lemon and olive. Now I am feeling hungry because the meal was taken three hours ago at 5pm and now at 9pm, I need to munch on some chocolate.

I will sleep early tonight so that I can wake up as early as I did today to speak to my darling and family back home. Sigh. Another three weeks odd before I can starting dreaming on my own bed. Can't wait. Really can't wait. If only it was this coming week that I can go home and I will be so happy. Really really happy but for now it is only wishful thinking.

So what's on tomorrow? I have plans to visit the best and supposedly the most expensive Italian restaurant in Bristol. I wanted to eat there this evening but I was told in the morning that it was full house tonight. It had better be good. As for other programs tomorrow, it'll be casino again in the afternoon and some shopping before dinner and after which, I look forward to the next weekend and the two more weekends to come.

Sad right? Always ranting about going home. By the way, it wasn't a hard boiled egg. It was butter in a bowl. Haha. Bet you didn't realise it.

Bristol Day 25

TGIF!! I now look forward to the weekends because work has been hectic and in less than 25 days I will be home. Finally.

Last night I had fun with my colleagues and had a lot to drink. Had some drink called Winter Warmer, a dark ale which was rather high in alcohol content. These ang-mos sure can drink a lot. I really wonder if their liver is harder by the day because this afternoon, the same group of guys asked me to join them for drinks at mid-day.

I turned them down because I had a team lunch. A colleague from the team is going on maternity leave next week and today is her last day. One year of maternity leave. That's a long time isn't it? Can't wait for Sandy to go on maternity leave too. Exciting.

Carol and Queenie are visiting Singapore this weekend and it is a pity I aren't there to keep them entertained but maybe they'll enjoy it better without me. :) Amy Leung and Sam will also head to Singapore on Saturday from Bintan. The Hong Kongers sure know how to enjoy life.

It is Friday night and I am back in the apartment early.It is only 950pm. No casino tonight because this weekend, I am sure I will spend some time there as I am not joining Angela to Swindon. Same for Sunday as I won't join her to Stone Henge. Just dislike the traveling and I can get more time to Skype.

I will be meeting Pang for breakfast tomorrow. He is the top chef from Masa and he has offered to take me out for breakfast. Wonder what's for breakfast? After meeting up with him, I might take a trip to Hippodrome to catch a musical - Cabaret. Hopefully there are still tickets for the matinee. If not I will have to spend the rest of the time shopping and getting stuff for friends and family and afterwhich do my favourite - look for food.

I want to try Beefeater but that is perhaps best after work since it is only next to my office building. So let's see what I can find tomorrow and I'll update you again. :)

I miss steamboat ...! Yet Con!! Farrer Park Prawn Noodles !!! Ion's Beef Noodles !!!!

But I have not much choices but to make do with the resources I have here.

Lunch today was Lasagne at Italian restaurant La Grotta. The other photo you see that has lots of mushroom is a Funghi Bruschetta that my colleague ordered. Looks nice ya? Dinner was half a roast duck, sweet sour pork and a plate of whatever veggie is that from a popular Chinese restaurant, Mayflower.

The Chinese meal was fantastic but again, ducks are overly oily but surely a taste of traditional Cantonese cooking. Loved it and might go back again to try other dishes but then again, I should try to explore other eateries right? I have another 20 odd days to do so, may as well enjoy it right?

Oh. And the plate of fried noodles you see is a Singapore Fried Noodles. Do we have that in Singapore? It was served at yesterday's lunch with Alvin, another Chinese director. We shared some dim sum too at Shanghai Nights. Yes. Same place again.

And do you see the pui kia at the pool table? That's Scott, my colleague and he plays pretty good pool. He kicked my ass and won me three games in a row. Sigh. The ball size was just different. Really. He promised he'll play with me again next week and Chris Davies will join in too. I'll show him my might then. :)

Have a great weekend!!