Wretched ....

I've lost it all

Whether big or small

All these times I've thought

That I'll win them all

It's time I take the fall

Never has it been my call

Every night I'll stay awake

Knowing it's my life at stake

There were tears and fears

A state of mind unclear

The pain slowly crept

The grieving body wept

Now I'm making my climb

These steps taking me closer to the end of my time

As life's moments flash me by

A prayer I'll say to bid the world goodbye

Standing over the ledge

To the world below I pledge

If I'll ever survive this plunge

God's gracing me with a life's refund 

Popo

Every smile a struggle 

Loosen muscles, wrinkles, sunken face

Every move a pain 

Hardened joints, swells, awkward limps  

Time slithers every cell withers

Her life's been one hell of a resister

Falling in her fifties

Cracking the cap out of the left knee 

She'd married two men separately

Both dead by the time she turned  seventy

Now trying to breath her life to a century 

No one's sure if it'll all end up a merry

 

Depression

The mind in chaos an internal conversation

Bringing unrest and thoughts of confliction

Razor sharp knives stabbing in aggression

The pain's inability to release the wounds affliction 

Escaping from reality, circles and rounds

Gagged and confused I am bound

Voiceless to scream i build a wall

Struggle amounts i begin my fall

Wrecked, broken the soul's combatant

Breaking out of hell ensuring existence

Conjuring strength out of hatch

Fighting vigor match for match

Rising above the sadness

I'll live yet another day of madness